hi, my name is cory.

scene, cory & lea, cory’s house.

“lea…” ugh, he hated this feeling more than anything. if there was one person who seemed to know what strings to tug at more than anyone with him, it was lea michele. maybe that was because she knew almost everything that was worth knowing about him. that was why, when they had broken up, he was a little shocked that she had taken it so hard. sure, he had spent a long time fighting for her, but it was easy to be in a relationship when you weren’t actually in a relationship. once there was no theo and lea only had him to focus her attentions on, things were different. suddenly, cory found himself with a lot less time, he had to be a lot more careful about what he said so he didn’t upset her, and he had to worry about not loving her the way that he knew she deserved. and then she had started pushing about making everything more serious and he got overwhelmed and he knew that while he needed lea, he wasn’t ready to be out in the open, do all of the relationship interviews that the knew would come. he had no idea about whether he would eventually marry her or not, what their kids’ first names would be, and he knew that lea was going to watch all of that and get upset. so, he had made the decision to end things, and ever since then, he had been pretending like he was okay with it, when he wasn’t. that was how the girls had started. first katie, then leighton. never selena because she was way too young, then it had been lea again, then katie, then katie again, then leighton, then katie, then lea, and the vicious cycle was never ending.

she was wrong about him not going to stop her. “lea, please…” he sighed, opening the front door and throwing his hands up as flashbulbs went off. his life had become a big public spectacle as of late and he didn’t know why the fuck the paparazzi insisted on camping outside his doorstep. “please, just come back inside, okay?” he begged. he really didn’t want to see her crying, and he knew that they had to have a discussion, because things simply could not continue the way they were currently going. after all, it wasn’t like they could just be normal ex’s and never see each other again, he still had to work with her for another year and he would rather not spend that year with her running away from him every time someone yelled ‘cut!’.

scene, cory & lea, cory’s house.

the thing about lea michele was that she had this incredible ability to guilt him. one sad look or one tear and cory felt like the world’s biggest douche. and yeah, okay, maybe he deserved it this time, but it didn’t make it any less frustrating for him. he didn’t know if it was an act because lea knew that that was her ticket to getting almost anything she wanted out of him, or if it was genuine. regardless, it hurt just as much and he was just as physically incapable of handling it. “yeah, you know i don’t really like bringing the outside world with me into this place,” he sighed, chewing on his lip. it wasn’t really her fault that he hadn’t answered his phone and yeah, she could have just come another day, but he didn’t have to be such an ass about it either. he wasn’t sure why he was so upset, aside from the fact that she was interrupting him…

sighing as he watched her wipe at her cheek, cory was up and on his feet before he even really realized what he was doing. the bad thing about this was that he wanted to help her and hold her and tell her it was all going to be okay, but it wasn’t. this was why he didn’t like getting involved (seriously, anyways) with co-workers, because it never ended well. he still had to see her at work every day and yeah, they were on hiatus now, but it wouldn’t be like that forever, and at some point, things were going to get weird and awkward. worse than they were now. “wait, lea…” he called, running a hand through his hair. “look, i’m sorry i was such an ass. just, please, don’t cry…” cory pleaded.

watching lea cry, whether it was as cory or finn, was pretty much the worst experience in the world, especially when he was the reason she was crying. she had cried for so long when he told her that they needed to end their relationship he had almost taken it back, but he knew it was for the best. he didn’t need any of this, the drama, even if he was getting it anyways, regardless of whether or not they were together. it was a damned if you do, damned if you don’t situation, but at least this way, he got to do everything on his own terms. he was responsible for no one but himself, and that was a comforting thought.

scene: cory & lea, cory’s house.

the thing about cory in the zone was that he didn’t really enjoy being disturbed. by anyone. for any reason. yeah, he was eating a sandwich and reading the paper, but his mind was still working and it was still in a place where he was by himself, enjoying his solitude, and he wasn’t a fan of someone coming in and screwing that up. especially when the person he was trying to escape, indirectly, was the one knocking at the door. “come in,” he mumbled, shaking his head with a sarcastic roll of the eyes. the principle of knocking was so that people could find out if you wanted them to disturb you. cory didn’t really want to be disturbed, especially not by lea, not at this moment. honestly, it was a little irritating how she seemed to show up at all the wrong moments. he thought she was still in new york. the least she could have done would have been to call. or tweet. she could have easily done both and it wouldn’t have required her coming to the house. whether she would admit it or not, this was lea coming to his house to see him. again. they had been through this, which was the worst part, and yet she was like one of those annoying coughs that never really went away after you had a cold. okay, so maybe she wasn’t that bad, but seriously, he had to think about how he was eating, how he was sitting, whether he had dropped nutella on his shirt now, it was just a mess.

“you could have just thrown them out,” he assured her, not really bothering to look up from his paper. “it’s been months, i’m pretty sure if i needed any of it, i would have either asked you, or i’ve gone out and bought another one at this point.” yeah, he was being an ass, but she was disturbing him and he wasn’t in the best of moods. when the two of them were alone, which was the case right now since the boys had gone down to the beach earlier on in the day with their respective girlfriends, things never usually turned out well for them. they usually ended up naked and going at it on some flat surface, but cory was sure that he was pretty much annoyed enough just by her presence in his home that he could keep that from happening. he had woken up on the wrong side of the bed and she had seriously picked the wrong day to do something that even resembled relationship drama. the wrong. freaking. day.

“i assume you didn’t come in without flashes, so i’m going to have to find a new spot to hide that,” he grumbled, shaking his head. instead of coming in, she should have just come back later. it was bad enough that the press was watching them like a bunch of hungry birds, just waiting for someone to drop food on the ground to fly in, but now they knew how to get into his house, in theory. like… why did his life have to be so complicated? he didn’t need any of this. he was a good guy from canada who was trying to turn his life around, now he needed to worry about people breaking in because they knew where he lived and they knew that obviously, they kept a spare key somewhere on the property. this day was just going from bad to absolutely fucking terrible.

scene: cory & lea, cory’s house.

cory monteith couldn’t really complain about how his life was going. he had just wrapped up the second glee live tour and he was doing press for monte carlo now. the movie had just come out and he was pretty proud of his performance. sure, it wasn’t going to win an oscar or even be seriously considered for a nomination, but that wasn’t what he needed. all he needed was to know that his fans were enjoying the work he was doing, and he wanted to enjoy what he was doing. he had been lucky. even when he was doing the crappiest roles to ever exist, he was still enjoying himself and acting was something that truly let him escape how crappy the world could be. it was a place that he didn’t want to be sometimes, so to be able to bury himself in the mind of a fictional character for nine or ten hours (sometimes more than that) in a day wasn’t a bad thing at all. sure, he was nowhere near as bad as he’d been as a confused teenager and he’d never go back there, but sometimes, life still stressed him out.

luckily, he had learned to be more constructive in dealing with his anxiety and frustrations, and when he didn’t have a lot to do (like now, since work was pretty much over for him for a few months), he would sit in the soundproofed confines of bonnie dune’s rehearsal space, playing his drums and just forgetting that things like daylight and darkness existed. sometimes, he’d just sit there all day and he’d forget to eat. he would start a bit of writing or he’d figure out a really awesome drum beat and he’d go with it until he saw it through to completion and had something workable to show the guys. it annoyed his roommates, but they’d been giving him his space lately. they knew that he was still kind of in need of a break and they were being accommodating of him, mostly. cory was a friendly guy, but he still needed his alone time and being on tour for so many weeks with such a huge cast meant that alone time was in short supply, so he was happy to just have some time to himself.

pausing from his work to eat the peanut butter, banana, and nutella sandwich he’d made earlier and brought in with him, cory picked up the morning paper as he bit into his food. he didn’t lead a particularly exciting life, but the papers still liked to talk about it. today, they appeared to want to turn his press conference pictures for monte carlo into some kind of poker game about his dating life. cory was single. very much single, by his own choice. he had been with lea michele, his glee co-star, for a few months, but he didn’t really like the thought of being tied down. yeah he wasn’t 20 anymore, but having a girlfriend came with all these obligations and responsibilities that he just didn’t have time for right now. of course, that didn’t mean that lea was less work just because they weren’t together anymore, because she seemed to have a knack (annoyingly) for making all of these pop up appearances in his life when he never really asked her to be there. it wasn’t that he didn’t want her around, but he wasn’t dim. he knew that lea was still trying to make something work between them. yeah, what they’d had had been great at first, but then the reality of remembering birthdays and anniversaries, and the repercussions that were attached with not remembering those things were just too much for him to handle. yeah, maybe he needed to do some growing up, but he wasn’t in a rush to settle down, and he knew that lea didn’t see the point in waiting around. in many ways, they were like oil and water, they just didn’t mix.

where we are.

some of you may remember this rp from last year. it had a pretty big following but we got busy and we had to stop posting. now that life has calmed down for both of us, we’re back, and so here is what you need to know:

• cory and lea were sneaking around last year while she was with theo. theo and lea had a publicity stunt relationship but she was sneaking around with cory. eventually she dumped him and cory and lea became an item.
• cory and lea dated for a few months, but cory doesn’t like the idea of being tied down and being ‘official’. lea was pushing him to come clean about their relationship with everyone and cory got scared and broke things off.
• they are still very much in love, even if cory doesn’t want to admit it, and there are still feelings there. lea keeps pushing them to get back together but cory is pretending like he’s fine and has been seen spending a lot of time with the girls of monte carlo and it’s really a toss up as to who he’s pinned as dating in a given week.
• lea, meanwhile, has been single and pining the whole time. occasionally, she still convinces cory that it won’t be so bad if they hook up just one time, always for old time’s sake, but it’s really not doing either of them any good.

ooc: restarting this.

stay tuned for more details.